How a Monumental Crisis Led to the Creation of the Business Mastery eCourse
About four years ago, I underwent a personal crisis that trumped anything I had ever experienced in my entire life.
It turns out that this excruciating time period turned out to be one of the greatest blessings and led to the creation of Higher Practice, but more on that in a little bit.
The weird thing about this time period was that there was no real precipitating event. I had some speculation on the culprit of my living nightmare, but it was a confusing time and I couldn’t pin the crisis down to any one thing.
It started around the time that I was newly engaged to my fiance. I felt this strange anxiety creeping in each day and it grew in exponential fashion.
At first, the anxiety felt like butterflies in my stomach. After a few months, it grew into a burning sensation in my chest that wouldn’t go away. I thought I had a physical illness, but my doctors all said this was anxiety.
Then exponential growth factor really took hold. The burning in my chest changed into a sharp pain like daggers stabbed into my gut and lungs all day long.
This was six months into what appeared like “generalized anxiety.” Well, it went from generalized anxiety into a monster I cannot truly describe, but I will do my best since this process is so important to understanding how your greatest challenges can lead to the manifestation of your greatest visions.
My body seemed to decompensate for lack of a better word. I developed a horrible migraine disorder. I was getting new, powerful migraines every two days. They were the kind that debilitates a person sending me into a dark corner of my room, questioning if I wanted to live.
While that was occurring, I developed a very messy case of irritable bowel syndrome (no pun intended). Imagine your worst stomach ache of your life, everyday, throughout most of the day.
Then came the insomnia. At first, I had trouble falling asleep.
But it grew and grew like all of my other symptoms. What started as a few hours to fall asleep turned into only sleeping for a few hours a night.
And it got worse. I went from a few hours a night to a few minutes an hour, literally. By the height of the insomnia I was sleeping a ½ hour a night of interrupted sleep. This went on for months!
Expectedly, a serious case of chronic fatigue syndrome followed. I was so tired throughout the entire day I felt like I was completely drugged in the worst way.
And then came fibromyalgia. Extremely painful sensations all over my body that had no origin and no way of relief.
Somehow I found I could handle this sort of physical nightmare. It was painful, even excruciating at time, but it ebbed and flowed.
It was the mental anguish that ensued that really sent me over the edge. I developed a nasty case of depersonalization, maybe to cope with everything else.
If you’ve ever experienced depersonalization I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Imagine feeling like you don’t know who you are and you are hovering above your body, completely ungrounded in any familiar reality and horribly anxious about it.
Along with the depersonalization came a complete mental disorganization. I had racing thoughts flooding me every second, unable to make sense of any of them, only knowing that they were terribly disturbing in content.
Whew! And all of this went on for nearly two years.
But somehow my private practice was the busiest it ever was and I actually felt present for my clients. It was the only place I felt stable in my life.
So here is where the big transmission came. First off, I was going through a spiritual emergency. There was no perfect diagnosis that brought all of this together and no perfect practitioner that could solve all of my problems.
In my spiritual emergency, I kept looking for a lesson to learn. I wanted some great meaning in all of the suffering.
And it eventually came but not in the way I expected. The suffering forced me to reevaluate every aspect of my life including my career. Before this period I expected to stay in private practice my whole life.
I didn’t have any plans for anything different. I thought I would be an old psychotherapist and never retire.
My spiritual emergency reorganized me from the most inner places of my being. I realized how unbelievably precious life was for me. What became so evident was that I had to be absolutely certain that I was serving people in the highest expression of myself and reaching as many people as possible.
I realized I needed to reach more people than I could in one-on-one therapy. After nearly a decade of that work it dawned on me that my time was coming to an end.
What followed was the insight of needing to empower therapists to reach their fullest potential. I had already been coaching therapists for years on how to build private practice so it was quite a natural progression. What I deeply saw and felt was that if I empowered one therapist they were going to empower hundreds or even thousands of clients in their private practice. If I empowered 10 or 100 or 1000 it was so important for healing suffering.
And this is a large part of the origins of when I started developing the Business Mastery eCourse and the notion of Higher Practice.
Fortunately, in the last couple of years, I was able to find my own personal healing and fully recovered and transformed from my spiritual emergency. I have almost none of the symptoms I described earlier.
I learned that as devastating as physical and mental illness can be, it also has great transformative powers. I feel blessed to have survived, thrived and have been given the insight of how I’m meant to serve the world today.
You are going to receive more emails than usual for the next couple of weeks before we launch our Business Mastery eCourse.
I told you my story, because you have your own story that is precious and challenging and transformative. This is a good time to evaluate where you are in your career and what support you need to fulfill your highest vision.
If you want our support we are here to serve you. Make sure to pay close attention to our emails the next couple of weeks. We are going to deliver some great content about how to build your practice and also offer our course at an amazing discount for motivated therapists.
Life has a funny way of shoving us into our fullest potential when we don’t quite want it to. If you don’t resist and trust the flow you will be surprised at how much you are capable of.
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